Post-Suicide Letter #2

I saw you in your kitchen,

I knew why you were there,

The only one who loved me,

The only one who cared,

I saw the cocktail of drugs,

Resting neatly in your palm,

Screamed at you to stop this madness,

But you were too far gone,

I watched you take them all,

With a bottle of Merlot,

Saw the razor glide through your tender flesh,

Through the little Sapphire veins below,

Watched you stagger, drunkenly,

Into a shower hot and steamy,

Hang yourself upon the pipe above,

Your eyes growing dark and sleepy,

I watched your face grow pale and cold,

While my own was drenched in tears,

I would have saved you if I could,

If you would have only known I was near,

When your breathing stilled to nothing,

Your heart it ceased to beat,

I watched you step out of your shell,

You looked like you were finally at peace,

But when I spoke your name,

You didn't see me or the skies of blue,

Instead you wandered off into the shadowy realm,

& that's where I've followed you to,

I'm trying so hard to reach you,

Only letters can I send,

Perhaps this is how we will communicate,

Until the end of the very end....