Tuesday, February 8, 2011

My Immortal

"I'm so tired of being here, supressed by all of my childish fears, & if you have to leave then I wish that you would just leave, your presence still lingers here & it wont leave me alone"
-Evanescence "My Immortal"
My heart it grieves for you,
Beneath a blood stained moon I breathe in sickly sweet air,
That infiltrates my senses, causing me to become hazy with delirium,
I place the razor to my wrists and carve your name into my pale white flesh,
& wonder to myself absent-mindedly exactly where you went in this grand world so large and unpredictable,
I think to myself silently that I miss your eyes and how they would stare right down into my soul,
Your hands and how they would roam over the expanse of my skin, leaving the tiniest goosebumps in their wake,
Your voice and how it would soothe me, bring my crazed brain and emotions back down to a realm of sanity,
& then how your voice drove the sanity straight from my soul altogether,
In general, I find it safe to say, I miss you...I miss who you were long ago and far away, once upon a time,
I grieve for the kindhearted, sugary-eyed, lovesick for me boy that I fell in love and pure primal lust with four years ago,
The one who broke his arm because he got so wrapped up in thinking of me that he fell off of a brick wall,
That wrote me love letters, love poems, sent me love songs and got me through the roughest time of my life to date,
I miss my friend...
My heart & soul confided in you, I felt safe with you, I felt content with you, & then you changed,
& now I don't know who you are anymore & I hate it,
I'd give anything to have you back,
But of course I can't have you back because you're gone...
"& though you're still with me, I've been alone all along..."
-Evanescence "My Immortal"

1 comment:

  1. Amazing! Heart breaking and honest. Why, oh why, do we allow ourselves to fall for these types of men? Very well written! Way to go!